just a brief update

well, i've been in the manager position for over a week now and things sre going well. i have had perfect cashouts everyday and things seem to running smoothly. now i just have to learn all the ins and outs of being a manager but that will come in time i guess. I am really bitchy today for some reason and i don't know why. i didn't get much sleep last night cuz i was up most of the night with my little boy. he has a wierd bacterial infection in his eyes worse than pink eye and they really hurt. he needs drops four times a day and he has to wear an eye patch because and light will hurt his eyes and could cause permenant damage. this is a really hard task as he is four and wants to be on the go all the time. he keeps one eye covered until the other eye gets too sore then he switches so they each get a break. it also means he is not supposed to watch tv or play on the computer, so how am i supposed to keep him occupied in a dark room with no light or tv or cartoons... he is just not a happy camper right now. hopefull he gets better soon then he can at least go to school. life is so boring right now that i don't have very much to post about. i work all day come home, cook supper, clean then usually as so exhausted i'm in bed before ten. but now i have weekends off so we can have some family time at least. this is all i've got for now so i won't bore you further T

from bad, to worse ...to great

well, today started out crappy, as I had court and was so nervous I almost puked all over the place. after waiting for three hours at the courthouse and breaking down into tears when I saw the accused, court was post-poned. Now I have to wait all over again and see how long it takes to go to court again. well, as you know, I have been having trouble with my saturday manager(I really felt like she had been trying to set me up), and when I got home the district manager had call my house 5 times. worried about what he had to say, I reluctantly called him back. Now here's the great news. He likes my work so much he wants to get rid of my saturday manager and give the store to me. that's right, I now have my own store. How exciting is that? I only started working for this company part time two months ago, and went to full time two weeks ago and now i run my own store. that is just too cool. Well tomorrow I have an eight hour crash course on how to be a manager and take over on thursday. i guess things do look up from time to time if you are patient and keep plugging away. That is all my news for today and I hope everyone is doing ok and I hope to hear from you all soon. Take care T.

grrrr

well, i really feel like im being set up at work lately. the manager at my saturday store always seems to have a problem with everything i do and today my suspisions very validated. the manager at my saturday store called my other manager and was bad=mouthing me to her. well she didn't like or agree with anything she was being told so she called me on it. after i explained how and what i felt she told me i was doing great and not to change anything about the way i work. without me knowing, she then called my district manager and explained what i told her to him. later in the day i was busy doing my work when surprise... the D.M called me and asked what my prob was with my sat manager. i retold my story and he as well agreed i'm doing a great job and he will look into the set-up. this made me feel lots better as i have been stressing about money shortages and stuff. he said not to worry about anything he would take care of things. so one stresser resolved but now for tomorrow... i have that court appointment which i blogged about previously, and yes i am nervous. with the two stressors today i managed to give myself a migrane which isn't cool but i feel a bit better now. so we'll take it step by step tomorrow and see how that goes. that is all i have time for tonight as i still feel like crap and i can only hope i get some sleep tonight cuz im sure tomorrow will be very emotionally draining for me. take care all and keep strong. T.

short blog tonight

i just wanted to take a minute to say happy birthday to a very special little man, today is his birthday and i just wanted to let you know Aunty T. loves you very much and hopes you had a great day. sorry i didn't get to talk to you but i hope you get this message just the same. lots of love and hugs and kisses to you sweetie. love always Aunty T and Bryce

fine- i give...

well thanks to the loving nagging of my sis(lol) here is whats been happining lately. i have been working lots lately and still trying to finish school and keep my house clean... not much time for anything else. my son finally came back from his trip to the farm and he had a blast. he hasn't willingly left my side yet. while he was gone he said he didn't miss me but now he is home, it is obvious how much he did. what a feeling. i am still plugging away at losing weight and am not going to give up till i get where i want to be. hope my support buddies are staying strong as well. together we can do this it just might take some time. i have court in exactly one week but i try not to think about that much as it makes me nervous and there is nothing i can do to change the outcome of this trial except be honest and hope for the best. i will not let him control my life anymore as i am sick of changing my plans to avoid him. he is the one who has to leave not me. anyway, today is a day off from work but i have to clean my house and do laundry and get some hours in at school so i should go and try to get something done. hope everyone is doing well and i miss hearing from those who havn't blogged lately. where are you and how are you doing??? please let me know. T

so whats the deal

i have been looking around and i still haven't found a breakdown on how many calories i should be eating per day and what percentage for each catagory. more carbs or protein and how much of each. i am really dedicated to making this change to eating better and could really use the help. if anyone out there knows the numbers please share them with me. today was a good start. i managed to eat breakfast, then to my surprise, i was hungry again at lunch. i know this is whats supposed to happen but i have been really bad in the past-only eating once a day. today i made 3 and it didn't kill me. i also went grocery shopping and didn't buy anything that wasn't on my list. here's to another sucessful day tomorrow. i am really trying to make this work. any words of encouragement would help, any advice, what works or doesn't work.... anyway, enough blabbing for now. take care to all and keep strong T

this is it

well, just wanted to say how thankful i am to have such a great support system out there. i believe if we all work together and share honestly, what we find works and does not work, we all will come far in our quest to feel and look better about ourselves. due to my leg disability i cannot do my "normal" exercise program so i am looking for something a lot gentler and easier on my leg. i got a pilates tape im thinking about checking out as i already do some stuff on the ball as part of my rehab. if anyone out there has any other ideas for me as to what i possibly can do please share. i even thought about yoga but since a lot of that requires standing on one leg and balancing, i can't do that. maybe i should just pick a bunch of stuff from everywhere and come up with my own fitness program. i could make millions..lol. but seriously some days my leg just refuses to work, like last night i tried to walk into the kitchen and suddenly, my leg just stopped working. i just about ended up on my nose. and this feeling didn't go away till tonight and that is with wearing both of my braces and using my cane. so my point is, i'm not always safe even just walking. i can't go far or even faster than a slow crawl but it is still exercise right? tomorrow i start my journal and i promise not to lie, even if i don't eat enough to feed a fly. that is my problem, i don't eat enough and don't ddrink nearly enough water so that is my two main goals of keeping a journal. eat three meals a day, healthy of course and try really hard to drink more water. lately is has been brought to my attention that the only water i drink is the stuff i make my coffee with. hey maybe that should be a third goal... to cut down on coffee. this look easy enough in print but it is a lot harder to actually follow but im going to give it my best. to TTS (three thin sisters) here is to a good nights sleep, and a positive and fulfilling day tomorrow. dont get discouraged and don't give up we are all in this together. when we succeed, look out world, you won't know what hit you. luv to all, take care T

my beef

ok so im listening to the news tonight and one thing sounds louder than the rest. "with the devistation Katrina left gas prices are gonna sour..." well correct me if im wrong but gas started to jump long before this happened. why would THEY use such a horrific tragity to justift gas prices? i really don't understand. am i the only one who doesn't care about that as much as the utter loss and destruction in the world. how can we bitch when there are people who lost everything....their houses, possessions, everything material and more importantly. the loss of life. in such mass numbers that who knows what the real number is. and when it will stop. don't get me wrong-the price of gas is outragious but the two shouldn't be tied together. my prayers go out to everyone who has been touched by this disaster and i hope finally people will look at whats really important in their lives and do the right thing. whatever that may be individual to everyone

totally freaked out

well this morning started off normal enough. I finished cleaning my house and sat down to watch a bit of tv and have a smoke when knock knock the cops are at my door. I just got subpoena'd to go and testify against my foster boys father for threatening to kill me. Yeah I am more than a little freaked out. he threatened me with a gun and a knife and numerous harassing phone calls at all hours of the night and now I have to go face him again. and to make matters worse, the info the supoena requests I bring in I can't get. I will have to go back to the cops to try to get it. also with no witnesses it is basically his word against mine. he has a very violent past so I hope the judge believes me or he will be even more pissed off at me when court is over. Will he come after me again. I really hope not and it will be over. He believes it is my fault his kids got taken away permenantly and i am scared he will try to hurt Bryce for an eye for an eye. I am truely freaked out here and don't know what to do besides tell the truth. I am in tears already so I can only imagine what I will be like in court. I don't want to look like an overly emotional blubbering little girl and loose credibility. any advice would be greatly appreciated. Thanks T